hmm.. just been thinking about second chances a lot lately.. mainly because

of personal things going on in my life in which a second
chance is my saving grace in more than one way

but what if they didn't exist?
what if one shot was all we got for everything?
just once?
no forgiveness.. no "make-ups"..
just hardcore consequences for all of our actions?

we can think of the little things..
the teacher that helped us out a bit when we know we didn't deserve it
the friend that we stabbed in the back ruthlessly
our parents that we took for granted time and time again..

well, maybe this world would be fair, right?
everything that happened was b/c it was what we were really thinking
really feeling..
nothing was allowed to be thought over..
fixed..
redone..
hmmm, what a world that'd be

I thank Jesus for the biggest and most important
second chance i've ever recieved..
and on a smaller note: what He's allowing to start
over in my life today..
thank God for all of your second chances today

** teaching is great.. kids are great.. but units = death...gotta love those suck**
ups though that name things after you, just so you know
how much they're tryin to suck up, ha

**ready for summer..should be nice..**
got some summer school to take care of, but
it should be fine.. hope to make some dough with grandpa
too.. a long break is much needed.. from many many things at LC

**I like Sarah Bareilles and Vanessa Carlton are wonderful, if you**
have yet to check either of them out, I highly recommend it.
may be different than what you're used to, but
what's the harm in a bit of change?
much talent to be heard

** well, i've discovered that guy/girl relationships**
are one of those tough things in life that you cannot get 
down to a science.. one of God's complicated little deals that
He doesn't make completely clear how to deal with.. wish it were
easier.. b/c guys are great.. yes they are.. or are they really? maybe not

**things are going to be different at home this summer. i think it will be**
somewhat sad, but also a time for growth.. i think it's time for
that: growth.. yep, i've decided the theme of the summer
will be growth! that works for me.. I pray
that God really changes me:
permanently!

**life does't always just hand you what**
you want, ya know? I've realized that I expect
good things to just be handed to me all the time..and that
everyone knows my heart w/o me showing it to them..but how
would that make any sense? only God can do that.. ppl do not = God

** Maybe i'm not who I actually thought I was.. not tryin to get way too**
deep here.. but i've discovered some dark areas in me..areas
that I guess i've pushed off to the side all this time & figured
would just get better over time.. hmmm hasn't
happened yet, and I guess it won't
until I really put forth that effort
to change it..sad when
we find these things
out about our-
selves

**well, I like new people.. that will be**
another goal of the summer.. meet new people..make
 new friends.people can be wonderful, if we'll only give them the
opporunity to be that way, right? give them a reason to wanna shine,
 wanna show that awesomeness that may even be buried way down deep
in there. possibly pushed down, crushed b/c of hurt and pain. who knows?
 i say we bring that right on out in ppl.. i notice your face, just that lil attitude
 adjustment can make all the difference. i wanna keep seeing that. change a bit

**well, now that i've gotten out a few things, I think I'll end this mug**

*gimme a reason to keep this up, hit me up with those comments**

**I love you, friends**

**Heather Marie**